There was a knock at my door, heavy and hollow. It rippled through the long hallway of my apartment, vibrating the pink jelly of my brain. The pounding opened my eyes with vigor, only to leave me feeling anxious. My thoughts mustn't had slept because my inner dialogue was instantaneous. Someone was at my door, unexpected and uninvited. I made my way to the kitchen and ignored my guest, but I heard the shuffling of feet. Pacing. Hoping I’d answer.
My kitchen cabinets were empty, but I had a few necessities to make a pretty good veggie burger. I opened my freezer to retrieve the floral patties and started to cut some onion. My thoughts continued to race as I examined all of the small things. The characteristics that you overlook in the beginning of a relationship because “it’s just not that big of a deal.” But all of those small traits suddenly seemed so big.
My world became an abrupt different color. What was once vibrant and green became undersaturated with blue hues and gray. I found myself lost in the dark corners of my mind. In the places I try not to go because when I do, I feel out of control. My kitchen transformed to a battleground of repetitive thoughts, one not helping the other. One not resolving the other. One hurting the other.
Uninvited, I still let them in. I threw two of the patties on to cook and the weight of cooking alone suddenly seemed like it could be a reality
Rosemary White Bean Burger
- 1/2 tsp garlic powder
- 1/2 tsp onions powder
- 1 tsp thyme
- 1/2 tbs salt
- 1/2 tbs pepper
- 2 tbs chopped rosemary
- 1 boiled potato
- 1/4 c oats
- 2 stalks celery, chopped
- 1 medium red onion, minced
- 2 carrots, chopped
- 2 cloves garlic, minced
- 1 potato, chopped in large chunks
- 2 cans of white beans, drained and rinsed
- 2tbs nutritional yeast
- In a pan, over medium high heat, sauté together celery, onion, carrots, and garlic- until sweaty and translucent.
- In a pot, bring some water to a boil. Pour in your chunks of potatoes and allow to cook until you can put a fork through them easily
- In a large bowl, mash your beans until pretty smooth (some chunks are good).
- Add in all ingredients to mashed beans- spices, potato, celery mixture, and oats.
- Mix all together, mashing the potatoes in the mix.
- Once well incorporated, form into patties.
- In a large skillet, heat up some oil and cook patties until brown on both sides
- Serve on your favorite bun and enjoy!